In the Open

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In the Open

The day is balmy
with segmented clouds.
The African tulip tree
spreads its boughs wide
over the seated ones
as well as the one who stands in front of us,
leading us to ground our feet,
relax our arms with hands palms up
and to go inside ourselves
to watch our breath
and be in the now,
in the state that she calls openness.

To be in the future is not openness, she says,
and to be in the past is not openness.
Only the now is really living.
And it occurs to me
that when I think I want a cup of coffee
and leave my studio to go in search of it,
then, in the kitchen,
can’t remember what I’m there for,
(and the reason why so many
friends my age are doing the same)
is because we are in this state of openness
more frequently
as we get older.

Wanting a cup of coffee is in the future,
and remembering we wanted a cup of coffee
a few minutes ago
is having to remember the past.
Standing here in the kitchen
listening to the baby birds’
loud cheeps
from their nest in the kitchen overhang
is being in the now.

And so it is that all of us, as we age,
are in the deepest stages of meditation
most of the time
and should not worry so much
about Alzheimer’s or dementia,
because we are where Tibetan monks
and ladies leading meditation
would have us be.
Open. Living the now
with increasingly
less memory
for what was
or was to be.

4 thoughts on “In the Open

  1. Ann O'Neal Garcia's avatarAnn O'Neal Garcia

    I think you are spot on. Yes, next time I go to a room and cannot remember why I am there, I hope I will at least remember your beautiful idea from this poem. I have sometimes thought that maybe old people with mental lapses, either benign or not so benign, are perhaps in an okay space. I also loved the cheeping of birds in this poem; it gave me a rush…I was there with you in that small second.

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  2. lifelessons's avatargrieflessons Post author

    I always felt that way, too. It certainly seemed true for my friend’s mother who suffered from Alzheimer’s, although I am certain it is not true for my sister. I think the pain comes from wanting something from the past we can no longer have rather than just giving in and living the present. This may be easier to wish for than to demonstrate, but I hope I find the grace to do this. As usual, thanks for reading, Ann.

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