This is an interesting set of questions the blog linked at the bottom asked us to answer. Since they are things I’d like to think about, I’m going to try to answer them.
What keeps you up at night? All of the things I still have left to do. I hate giving up on the day because there are much more interesting and rewarding things to do other than sleep.
What’s the most surprising self-realization you’ve had? I have many negative impulses but just choose not to act on them. I am disappointed that I would even think of them, even though I know at heart I would never do them.
What’s the most illegal thing you’ve done? Driving as fast as my new Firebird would allow me to. I wanted to know if it would go as fast as the speedometer would register. It did. I can’t remember if it was 140 or 160 mph. It was a perfectly straight divided road at night with no other cars on the road. I was very young.
What lie do you tell most often? That I’m going to start my diet tomorrow.
What do you regret not doing? Starting my diet six months ago.
What gives your life meaning? Writing and doing art.
What do you most often look down on people for? What do you think other people look down on you for? I look down on other people for cruelty toward others. Other people probably look down on me because I am overweight. Boy, I’m really on a roll here, aren’t I?
What bridges do you not regret burning? I don’t regret selling almost everything and moving to Mexico.
What are you most insecure about? My weight.
How do you get in the way of your own success? I don’t want to do things in the usual way.
What’s one thing you did that you really wish you could go back and undo? There was something I said to my boyfriend in high school that wasn’t true but I said it to hurt him. I wish I could take it back. If he were still alive, I would do so. This was not an untruth I told him about anyone else. It was an untruth about how I felt about him.
What are you afraid people see when they look at you? My grandmother.