
That Point
It was at that age
of worrying about others,
of feeling not enough,
of looking for a pattern that was myself
that I put words down,
fearing them
or if not them, fearing those who read them.
At that age when I didn’t know what I thought,
I was astonished that the hand that wrote
knew more than I did
and taught that I must be brave,
fearless on the page in a way I had not yet learned to be in life
so that I became a writer to teach myself.
To have someone I trusted as a guide.
It was at that age when I wanted to be admired––
that age when I sought to be loved––
that age when I yearned to be thought a thinker,
important, listened to––
that I was somehow encouraged to listen to myself.
There are these times we are led to by life
that become turning points
so long as we continue.
That sentence. That first sentence stretching
into the future, into now.
I’m republishing this poem from 2016 for the dVerse Poets Krisis (Turning Point) theme. April 12, 2025 on Open Link Night, Apr 10, 2025
I love the personal point we all have, and I hope we have many through our lifetime… the collective and personal may at some point intersect (which I feel it does at this moment)
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Yes, Björn, I feel like much of the world is unified in thought right now. Unfortunately those who have the opposite thoughts seem equally united.. Would that we could sway their view.
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i seem to have come full circle (back to the age of worrying).
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I think we all have, Ren.
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“I was astonished that the hand that wrote
knew more than I did”
These words resonate. I have been surprised many times by what has shown up on the page when I am willing to be open.
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I had a wonderful mentor who brought this point across so clearly. Thanks to him, Jack Grapes, for teaching me to trust that inner voice.
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Like Ali, these lines leapt out at me:
“I was astonished that the hand that wrote
knew more than I did”
It is amazing what can appear on my page. The Muse is real!
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And it is us!
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Yes- isn’t it marvellous?
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