A room. A window. Outside the window, an entire world that I have not moved through for so many years. Some of the world comes to me, it is true, and I am not so reclusive that I do not let it in. Marietta brought her newest baby just yesterday, and I held it as though I have held a baby every day of my life in spite of the fact that I have not held a baby since that first baby slipped away from me, into the arms of another woman I have never known the name of. That baby was ripped more violently from my arms than it was from my body hours before. I was not given a choice. No one knew. The baby vanished and then I vanished, off to another country. Off. . . .a cough. I spin around and look behind me. It is a new intruder. After so many years alone, two people entering my world. Perhaps if I’d kept the door unlocked all these years, more people would have come other than the boy who brings my groceries and the other woman with the many layers of skirts who brings me new medicine when I have need of it.

I do not know this new person. It is a young man who carries a machete in his hand. He is very tall. Very very tall for a Mexican, so perhaps he is a Bedouin or some other Arab from a tall tribe, plopped down in America in the way many of us have been positioned here by fate, by circumstance or by force. His skin is that beautiful golden coffee color of someone naturally dark who has also been in the sun for long periods of time or for a long lifetime.

“Disculpe, senora,” he says, as he moves into the room. When I speak to him in English, he switches to English. He has seen my tall palm with the fruit and the seeding husks hanging dangerously loose. He can scale this tree and cut them for me. It needs to be done, senora, and if I have no money to pay, he will do it for no more fee than my friendship. And if I have no friendship to offer, then he will do it for the good grace it will bring him in the universe and perhaps an easier ingress into heaven.

It is an omen, I think, and I surprise myself when I give him permission to trim the tree. He cannot know how much he looks like a young man in my past and he cannot know how uncharacteristic it is for me to allow anyone at all into my life, my room, my trust. Now I have an obligation to this man I know nothing about. He may be dangerous. Certainly, he carries a weapon. The branch of the pomegranate tree taps taps on my window, as though a strong breeze has come up in this still day. It is the fingers of the afternoon reminding me. Warning me. But then I see that it is the movement of the young man as he brushes past the tree that has set it in motion.

A large turquoise dragonfly rests on the branch that has stopped moving and that now sits isolated. Another dragonfly approaches it and seems to attach itself in an arch and they go flying away together in this impossible configuration—a broken circle. How two creatures can move as one is not something I have ever learned, not since the one person who was a part of me for so many months was pulled from my arms still weak from childbirth. If they’d waited, I would have been strong enough, I tell myself. I have been telling myself for most of my life.

After they took from me what was mine, we took a drive to a large place with many chairs. Many chairs and many people, then a corridor. Then I was on an airline and in spite of my terror, I fell asleep. I was a thirteen year old girl, accustomed to doing what I was told to do. I woke up in America, where I was driven to the beautiful house of my aunt. It was here I lived for ten more years. Here that they expected to give me a new life to encourage me to forget my old life, but as I sit for all these years in my isolation, it is the old life that I remember and remember and remember.


for dVerse Poets Pub.

23 thoughts on “Unmoved

    1. lifelessons Post author

      It is fiction..perhaps the whole horrible immigration mess combined with the states that might force young girls to have babies and then take them away, i.e. the banning of abortions in all cases..and just a general feeling of empathy for those who must give their children away. A general sad theme. The topic was “moving” and in this case, the irony was that in moving the young girl away from her familiar environment, she became frozen and unmoving.


  1. lifelessons Post author

    The last time we watched Lion, we watched it with the sound off and for some reason it was incredibly profound! Try it. Hard to explain. It was a wonderful film.


  2. Judy Reeves

    Judy, I have held this post for a few days while I traveled from home to my daughter’s house. I wanted to be in a quiet setting so I could thoroughly read it after a quick scan before I left home. What a beautiful story, so heart-full and affecting. Thank you.

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    1. lifelessons Post author

      Thanks, Judy. Being without phone and internet for two days has had an incredible effect. I found a 300 page manuscript I’d forgotten writing! I remembered many of the chapters but did not remember I’d compiled them into a book. And, to boot, I found another 4 inch thick file with stories I’d written in Africa! I’d never have found these if I’d had a blog to work on. Hmmm. What does this tell me? xo


  3. Gospel Isosceles

    Wow, so well composed, Judy. I really enjoyed the two tropes of the pomegranate (haha, autocorrect just turned that to ‘poem granary’) and the dragonflies. It is a tragic comic truth that remembering keeps us bound and paralyzed, in a way. To move on, one would seriously have to relinquish the memory of what it is capturing our heart. I loved reading this!

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