Core Identity

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Core Identity

Whoever really gets to see
what is at the core of me?
Neither my mother nor my lover
gets to see beneath my cover.
No surgery has extracted it.
It’s not exposed in ire or wit.
It’s in a corner still unlit,
buried in identity’s pit.

Even I have not exhumed it, for
I’ve never found my very core.
Some say it’s found in meditation,
prayer or true love’s exaltation,
but I have journeyed into each
merely to wind up on the beach
of what I know must be the sea
of my soul’s identity.

Perhaps it is the world’s distractions––
all its toys and fine abstractions,
its petty jealousies and fears
regarding family and careers
that get me lost while searching for
that ladder, passageway or door
that will lead me to the root of me––
that seed of my identity.

Perhaps in death we’re rejoined with
the part of us that is our pith.
Could it be what life is for—
this striving toward identity’s core?
Perhaps the lonely death I fear
will finally serve to bring me near,
away from all those things I’m not
to that whole self I’ve always sought

 

The WordPress prompt today is core.

 

18 thoughts on “Core Identity

  1. lifelessons Post author

    Thanks, paean. Paean is a world I have to look up so see how to spell it every time I need to use it! Along with hors d’oeuvres!!! Something about those double vowels, I guess.

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  2. hirundine608

    Remi, True enough. Likely something we all face at one time or another? The body is not immortal but the spirit is …. just stay true to your inner self and let the outer self take care of itself, is my method. Cheers Jamie

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  3. rugby843

    Great to see you! Nice picture too, with those beautiful eyes! I suppose everyone has hidden parts of themselves and don’t even know it, maybe never will. Or maybe parts of ourselves are only revealed in our next life….hmmm

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  4. dorannrule

    A grand bit of self probing! Somewhere there is the real person devoid of all the pretenses and covers of life…. you have definitely made me think about the hidden real me.

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    1. lifelessons Post author

      I don’t think those deepest selves contain our best qualities for socialization, actually. I think the degree to which we recognize those places equal our knowledge that there are impulses we are constantly keeping in check. Sociopaths don’t bother.

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